Should i worry hm ?

EPIK HIGH FEAT LEE HI – IT’S COLD

Spring comes and flowers bloom

Summer comes and memories melt but…

The four seasons don’t suit me well, I’m a cold person

My hard personality is like the skin-cutting winter

The cold wind – you all know

To me, coldness is everything, it’s like the winter sea

Send a boat off and you’ll see that I’m not an island but an iceberg

I lost my focus because my eyes are frosted

The cold memories have been trampled

I keep screaming even without my uvula

I was an icy road with only painful scars remaining

My heart crumbled as if an avalanche came down

After I put things back in place

The lights were off and it was night

Though the sun called you has risen

The snow-covered mountain does not melt

It’s cold here even when I hide my hands in my pocket

It’s so cold even when I blow into my hands

My heart is so frozen that my lips get cracked

I’m the only cold one even when I wrap my body in blankets

It’s so cold even when I’m in someone’s embrace

I try to block the hole in my heart but the wind keeps coming in

The spring comes with a fluttering heart

But I’m standing at the tip of fall

My memories have stopped in the winter

I’ve put all the warmth in between the cracked skin of my dried heart

Memories are trapped inside the frozen river

But it holds onto me and doesn’t let go of my hand

After I got to know the cold separation

The blooming spring doesn’t come anymore

Cherry blossoms fall like snowflakes, it’s cold here

Sunshine falls like a snowstorm, it’s only cold for me

If I touch anything, it freezes so I’m afraid to hold your hand

Because if you come close to me, your heart might catch a cold too

It’s cold here even when I hide my hands in my pocket

It’s so cold even when I blow into my hands

My heart is so frozen that my lips get cracked

I’m the only cold one even when I wrap my body in blankets

It’s so cold even when I’m in someone’s embrace

I try to block the hole in my heart but the wind keeps coming in

I’m cold as ice. I’m cold as ice. I’m cold as ice. So cold.

Spring comes and flowers bloom

Summer comes and memories melt but here…

It’s cold here, it’s so cold

My heart is so frozen that my lips get cracked

It’s only cold for me, it’s so cold

I try to block the hole in my heart but the wind keeps coming in *)

*) From : http://www.kpoplyrics.net/epik-high-its-cold-lyrics-english-romanized.html#ixzz2EjOzR6uB

Letting go

Understand but not really understand..

Letting go of something is a difficult thing to do..

Perih.. tapi itu kenyataannya. Hurt, but that’s the truth..

Sesuatu yang penting buat kita, belum tentu penting untuk orang lain.. Something important for us doesn’t always important for others

Is noone really knows how important school for me ? Or maybe the only one who knows and understand about it already gone.

As if letting go of it is something easy to do..

You never know how it means a lot to me..

You never know..

Miss you, nae chingu tumblr-ya. :P

Weird and will be quick update. Just to fulfill my desire to write something here. LoL

Only realized today, well, this morning actually. whenever i was panicking, going late to somewhere, i tend to try calming myself (while riding motorbike), with selftalking. LoL. blabbering random words and random topic in Japanese, Korean, english, even alien language. Oh, man, is that weird? LoL.

A girl’s letter

Are you hurting somehow there ? The girl paused, only to sigh slightly before continued scribbling out the letter ‘out of the keyboard’.

Well, my brain is working in a complicated way, she wrote

Honestly i dont know anymore

Are you that hurt that made you felt the urge to completely dissapear like that ?

Everything is because of her right ? She found herself smiled forcefully at the thought.

Well, if this can makes you better, actually, i am here hurting too. The fingers she was using to type on the keyboard, curled as her hand balled into loose fist.

If this can make you feel better, well, since honestly i still feel the urge to comfort you out of my concern even when you’re the reason why i am crying so hard at one day, you’re also hurting another people while you think you’re the only one hurting.

if you feel dissapointed by her, then i’ll say that you’ve also dissapointed me

if you feel hurt by her, then i gotta say that i feel hurt because of you

if you felt heartbroken, then.. even when i hate to admit this outloud..

you’d left me heartbroken too..

Well, people are like that right..

they cant live without hurting noone at all

people will leave pain to at least one person in the world, literally or not

people will make scar on someone at least once in a lifetime..

Maybe..

Well, is this seems funny ?

This letter shown concern everywhere isn’t it?

sometimes i hate the effect you had on me

I hate it as i felt a lot of mixture emotion but later i realized you might have felt nothing about me

before i write this, i even replaying one of our, oh scratch that, my song, the song which reminded me of you. Do you remember 사실맞춰갈힘도없어너라는내퍼즐게임 ?
that was like.. well.. you.. at first.. but somehow in the end, i think it seems like everything only revolved around me, my self, my own way thinking. i was fooling myself and the silliest is, i am hurting so bad because of it.

I want to move on, but even now, i still like to take concern glances toward you, not literally, since mostly, i tend to keep distance with the one i care about(not family or friends only zone)

I am distracted, to think that you’re hurting, even sometimes afraid that i was the one who hurt you, when i should realized that your eyes only on her all the time and there’s never been a ‘me’ at all on there.

I really hope someone will come to rescue me and erase all the effect you had on me because i am tired being like this, hurt and hurt again.

I’ll move on, I’ll try and i just hope you’ll also stop hurting too..

She closed her eyes slightly for a bried moment, opened it once again, before nodding slightly to herself. There’s a lil hope lit up on her heart, still, the hope involving him. She hoped she can miraculously make him feel better with the letter.. Well, ridiculous enough ? She know it without need one to tell her so, but still, the hope is still there even when she really badly want to move on this time and end all the feeling she had for him.